The Peaceful Warrior and Weed

I recently took ill a couple of days ago, and had a chance to catch up with some movies that I had been collecting on my shelf. One of those gems was Peaceful Warrior. If you haven’t had the chance to watch it, I HIGHLY recommend it. It’s a life changer of a movie. An Amazingly Awesome friend introduced it to me during a time in my life when I desperately needed some guidance. It was the first of many steps I took to start really getting what I need out of life. I think it was also the most important of the steps.

Peaceful Warrior Movie Poster

Awesome Movie! Awesome Book!

However, when I watched it this time, I made a connection with a previous topic I have touched on several times in this blog. Specifically the topic of Smoking Pot. Upon watching portions of the movie where “Socrates” is trying to teach Dan that there is never nothing going on, I realized that the way of the Peaceful Warrior and the effects of Marijuana on the mind have an inverse correlation.

In the past, when I have talked about my experiences with Mary Jane, I have mentioned a “shrinking” of the world around me. More specifically it has been a “shrinking” of my awareness. First, I drop all awareness of the universe, Then the rest of the planet leaves all conscious thought, then my country is all that is left, then the state I’m in. Before I know it, the town, the world outside and even for a brief period the rest of the house is all non-existent within my head. All responsibilities and worries tied to those places and the things in them have dropped away. They might as well no longer exist at all. That’s the feeling that kept me drawn to smoking weed. After my “Bad-Trip” I never touched the stuff again, and never will. Curiously though, after watching Peaceful Warrior again, I think this may be a good thing for me.

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You have been warned!

“There’s never nothing going on… There are no ordinary moments.” – Dan Millman, Peaceful Warrior

{SPOILER ALERT}
In the Movie, the Character Socrates attempts to heighten the awareness of the character Dan. At one point (after a hilarious scene at a bridge) he gives Dan a dose of clarity with some kind of pressure point move. During another point he makes him sit on a Car for hours until he comes to the realization stated above.
{END SPOILERS}

In the Book they have a conversation where Socrates asks him a series of questions starting with “Where are you?” in which Dan answers (among others) “the Universe”. To which Socrates replies “And Where is the Universe?”

I started thinking about the idea that there are no ordinary moments. At every possible moment, somewhere, most likely in several places all over the universe, something AMAZING is happening. Becoming a Peaceful Warrior is about being able to see that thing. If not in person, than at least in your minds eye. There is always something beautiful to behold.

World looming over head

All those problems… are still on your shoulders.

I believe now that Pot dims the light that lets us see those amazing things. It turns the universe into a dark place that you don’t bother thinking about because “out of sight, out of mind”. Then, when it starts to wear off, the light slowly gets brighter showing you all the scary things that have crept up on you in the dark. Had your light not gone out, you could have kept an eye on those things, but now they loom over you like evil ogres in shadows of your mind.

Of course, this is all just my opinion and speculation. I just wanted to talk about the strange connection between a random movie and a drug that will be legalized in Alaska very soon. Like I said before, I don’t mind if anyone wants to go and smoke some weed every now and then. I just won’t be in your smoke circle. And now I have one more reason to say why.

Thank you for your time!

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You had a bad trip… On Weed?!?!?!?

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weed by Saiberis

I’ve decided to do a follow-up post about my experiences with weed. I am doing this because, out of all the posts on this blog, I have gotten the most views and comments from this post alone by far! It seems the Marijuana community has caught sight of my post and found it interesting. Thank you all for reading and commenting! Some comments agree while others disagree about my words. I don’t mind either way. That was my interpretation of what happens to me as I can remember it. Everyone has their own experience and sometimes it’s completely different.

I am also writing this, because I have quit smoking Mary Jane and have set my sights far away from mind altering substances. And while I would like to try throwing some pot in my juicer to see how it tastes and what health benefits I’ll get, I am pretty much staying as far away from it as I can. Why don’t you smoke [any more]? is a question I’m asked all the time, and all the time I get the same response “WHAT?!?!” I don’t smoke weed anymore because I had a bad trip.

It was a good couple years back…

I went to a friends house to hang out and talk with my usual gathering of buddies. It seemed like I was over there just about every day. I didn’t always smoke when I went over there, just because I didn’t feel like getting high all the time. I was also reaching a point in my drug journey where I only liked the experience for the first couple hours, after which I wanted it to end and everything to return to normal. I liked being able to think clearly.

Tonight wasn’t a very abnormal night. It just happened to be one of those nights where we decided to get high and watch a movie. If I would have known what was going to happen next I would have never gotten high and probably had left immediately. I regret this night every time I think of it.

We passed around a bong and my host friend decided to turn on a movie they just rented… Saw VI… Now I am a fan of most movies. I like horror, action, comedy, romantic comedy, I’ll even watch the real romantic mushy stuff. Just about the only exception to the list is period pieces. I have nothing against horror flicks, except I think many of them have lost their original scary soul. However, that is a different topic. I sat down and watched the movie with everyone else.

I don’t really remember much of the movie details. Once you get my group high and in front of a TV we start making fun of what’s on the screen and conversing and laughing. After the initial high wore off and the giggling died down all eyes finally settled on the TV and we watched in silence.

I remember the scene when it happened pretty vividly. The main guy walked in a room and found all of his interns strapped to a revolving circle of chairs in a bulletproof glass chamber. (This part is hard to write) The main guy had to hit a button to choose which of the people he knew would live. the people who were chosen for death would be rotated to face a shotgun and… you can guess or have probably seen the rest.

a picture of "The Carousel" from Saw 6

The Carousel

My moment came after the final decision. He chose to save one person over another in a very dramatic moment. The person he sentenced to death began yelling and cursing and berating him for his choice as his chair slowly rotated towards the shotgun. In the last instance he shouted the words “NO! YOU LOOK ME IN THE FACE WHILE YOU KILL ME!!!” The main guy looked up. The man in the chair saw his eyes and looked down in horror as the chair came to a stop and… BLAM!

That was the moment in happened…

My mind locked on those moments and they began to play over and over in my head. I began to think about what the man in the chair had going through his mind in those last moments and even during. I began to imagine myself in his place. The adrenaline started to flow. Then I began thinking about all of the other death scenes in the movie that I had seen. I put myself in their place. It expanded from there. Every horror movie I had ever seen. Any movie or TV show depicting death or even harm. Adrenaline was pumping through my body at this point and I was no longer paying attention to the movie. Death flew through my mind without any sign of stopping leaving fear growing in his wake.

My mind tried to rationalize these feelings, but ultimately it only made things worse. I began to ask why I was freaking out. Why was I scared. Finally my brain came up with an answer:

“Someday you are going to die and there is nothing you can do to stop it. It will probably be terrifying and it will probably be painful and it could be as soon as any moment now.”

I had focused on my own mortality. Now, as you know, when you are high all the outer world drops away and your world gets smaller. One train of thought runs through your mind at any given time. Well, my world was extremely small and My own death was the only train I could think about. I would have given anything to think of something else.

My mind just took it from there and began to make up horrid possible ways that I could die and played them for me over and over. I was like that the rest of the night. I had to excuse myself from my friends house and leave. Eventually I ended up rocking myself to sleep in my bed at home.

After that night I suffered nightmares and a lingering fear of my immanent death. I have not been able to watch horror movies since. Only after many many many demands by my friends, I got high one last time, only to have the entire cycle start over again. Now I am afraid of taking any mind altering drug for fear that it might have the same effect.

It’s been a good couple years now and I have lost that lingering fear, though it doesn’t take much thought to surge my adrenal gland. I have faced my mortality in minor ways several times since that night and I think I’m going to be fine. However, now whenever I am asked if I want to smoke I politely decline and give an explanation if needed. I still have nothing against anyone who smokes. I just choose not to any more.

What does it feel like to smoke weed? – UPDATED x2!

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Recently I was on Yahoo Answers and I came across this question. The answer I gave was an extremely fun trip down into my memories. I thought I should share it with you all.


Smoking weed is the BEST drug out there for the fact that it does the least harm to you and you can’t really overdose on it.

The first thing you feel is the burn in your lungs as you inhale the smoke. Now bare with me here, because I have smoked way too many times and I paid Very close attention to what it was doing to me. It made the high feel a lot more trippy and fun.

If you pay close attention you can feel the THC in your blood veins traveling around and making you tingle all over your body. I imagined that it was like millions of spiky crystals bouncing off the walls of my blood veins and triggering my nerves. Eventually that feeling fades into numbness due to the fact that your brain is getting too many signals too fast.

At that point your world starts to shrink. Everything outside of the building you are sitting in drops away from your thoughts. Your world now consists of the house you are sitting in. As you ponder this It is only you and the house. Time has dropped away from your thoughts at this point and you are no longer concerned with schedules (this is why it’s so relaxing to take it). I suspect at that point you are among friends in a smoking circle so you realize that there are others in the room and they are talking. You spend the next while trying to keep up with the conversation which you are doing very well in your head because it is pretty much the only thing on your mind at this point. By now, the rest of the house drops away and its just you, your friends and the room you are sitting in.

If you were alone your head would go into kind of an autopilot, You would find a task to occupy your time and you would probably lose yourself in it. You would be surprised how much you can get done when you are high if your brain focuses on the right task. I think that is why people like to get high at dead end jobs. one of the side effects is that it makes you not care whether what you are doing is boring or not, you just know that you need to do it and that’s OK.

Now let’s go through a list of the senses

Sight:
You know how, when you look left and then right with your eyes, you sight just instantly shifts to it’s next destination without focusing on anything in the middle? Well When you are high Your brain tends to notice the full motion of that movement. You may not notice it, but that is what makes you kinda dizzy feeling.

Smell:
Forget this sense unless it is a strong smell. Most of what you will be smelling is the weed you just inhaled. That’s what gives you paranoia about getting caught high. You smell weed everywhere even if no one else can. If you do smell something it will definitely catch your attention though, because now your brain will focus on anything in an instant.

Taste:
Oh Wow! Taste takes on a whole new meaning when your are high. It moves right in with touch. When somebody mentions food it seems to be all your brain can think about. Since your whole body feels numb, your stomach has pretty much lost the feeling of being full, so now your brain is telling you “I need to eat”. The Greatest foods to eat when you are high are anything Crunchy and sweet! Smores are to DIE for. Oreo’s, and popcorn and cereal and chips and crackers and ice-cream. Oh MY!!!! Be forewarned! When you do finally feel full it will not be a pleasant feeling.

Touch:
Not much going on here unless you couple it with taste. You feel the full weight of your body and how your muscles have to work to keep you from being a big pile of mush. So what do you do? You do your best to act like a big pile of mush. It is a very good muscle relaxer.

Hear:
Not much to Say hear either. You don’t pay very much attention to what you are hearing when you are high. However when you do start listening you will wish that you could be in complete silence for once in your life.

In Closing, weed is a very fun drug to try out, but it does come with consequences. You can’t think as clearly when you are on weed and the detox period is not very fun either if you have been regularly smoking. The DTs seem to take the form of depression and anger. You just have to bare with it and let the clouds part by themselves. I noticed that after smoking a lot, I have developed a studder that I didn’t have before and my memory isn’t what it used to be. Keep in mind though I used to drink a lot as well. I don’t any more. And I only recommend mixing smoking and drinking as a one-time-thing. It is a little more dangerous.

I hope you liked this. It is the most I have ever typed in Yahoo answers.

—UPDATE—

Here is a video from ASAP Science on Youtube that explains the science of Weed.

—UPDATE 2—

Hey, if you like this article you might like this one as well!

http://brainfroze.wordpress.com/2011/01/24/the-nightmare-before-april-20th/